Gedulo vartai, by Daina Dieva

Gedulo vartai

by Daina Dieva

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latexkink That comes, that goes. That whom born, must live. One who lives, can't choose the death as a part of liberation. Depths of feelings that survive, in that case everything goes and goes. Good album, worth to have it. Cheers with a glass of mineral water. Favorite track: II (And I Miss You So Walking Backwards Feels Home).

veadtuck Throbbing lyrics, majestic voice, solemn atmosphere. Heartbreaking and bittersweet. Daina is always unique even at her own business. Do yourselves a favour and buy this gem of an album. Favorite track: III Gedulo vartai.

bB- Beautiful deep drones with heartbreaking sadness. Thank you! Favorite track: III Gedulo vartai.

smurfejus All the tracks blend nicely into one good sonic experience. The feeling of grief sounds not as a painful but as an existential one. Daina Dieva signature voice brings an ethereal quality that makes the listening experience unique. The III track reminded me of the band Raguvos and their song Lapė. Favorite track: III Gedulo vartai.

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Cassette tape in white shell with black print.
Each cassette comes in a hand-cut cardboard envelope (300 gsm) with individual hand-made ink drawing, hand-numbered.
Each tape is accompanied by an individual hand-made thank you card and is posted in a brown cardboard box.

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1.	I (And I Miss You So My Blood Becomes Ash) 04:48	lyrics	buy track
And I miss you so My blood becomes ash
2.	II (And I Miss You So Walking Backwards Feels Home) 05:20	lyrics	buy track
And I miss you so Walking backwards feels home
3.	III Gedulo vartai 05:08	lyrics	buy track
Aš įtemptas lynas ir kūnas ant jo Nuo žvilgsnio kiekvieno, nuo kiekvieno žodžio Visa kas eiži, visa kas byra Aš styga ir strykas, ištvermingai virpu Kol išaudžiu jūrų gaudesį bekraštį Įtempti ašutai aš - braukti, trūkti, tirpti Aš gedulo vartai (rūko) tako gale Aš diena išblyškus, mieganti prie slenksčio Aš tyloj auginta tarp piktų žaltvykslių Aš gedulo vartai (rūko) tako gale ///EN> I am a tightrope and the body that walks it Within every glance, within every word Everything cracks, everything withers I’m the string and bow, I persevere at humming Until I weave the endless drone of seas I’m a strained strande of horsehair swipingburstingmelting I’m the gate of grief at the edge of the road I’m a fading day sleeping at the doorstep I’ve been raised in silence by angry will-o'-wisps I’m the gate of grief at the edge of the road
4.	IV (And I Miss You So This Pain Becomes Sea (Chaos)) 04:21	lyrics	buy track
And I miss you so This pain becomes sea
5.	V Nuskendusių vėtrų uostas 18:00	lyrics	buy track
ten, kur mano namai, aušros nebeaušta sugrįžk, sugrįžk, prašai, girdžiu tik vėtrų gausmą šilkamargėj tyloj prapliumpa paukščių raudos sueižėja vyzdys veidrodžio dugne ///EN> The sun won’t rise at the houses I dwell Turn back, come back, thou plead, I only hear storm rumbling In silvergrey peace Birds burst in lament at the bottom of the seeing-glass, a pupil cracks

about

Gedulo vartai is a work with, about and through grief.

Work on Gedulo vartai (translates as Gates of Grief) started on this day one year back.The fragility of life, guilt, distance, loss, pain - confronted with all of those feelings following a suicide of a very dear person, I struggled. I did not really know where to put all of these feelings. Gradually they transformed into long slow drone textures. Grieving in sound felt better then grieving in silence.

Working on all of this was a bit like time-traveling - memory work trying gather bits and pieces all in one gained concrete sound forms. Next to completely new sounds, I went through a lot of things that I had created earlier. I cut out some echoes, remastered one of my earlier works (IV, originally composed for dance performance Chaos by Mauricia Barreira Neves in 2016), recorded a song which was composed years back, performed live, but never published (V).

The long process of handwork to make the cardboard folders for the cassettes was partly an effort to minimise plastic in production. However, partly it was a pursuit to firstly give myself time and space, secondly - to create a work which would reflect the intimacy of pain which the sound material conveys.

All in all, this work is not meant to romanticise suicide and I hope you won't read it this way. The bereavement and pain (of those) that remain cannot be romanticised. It's rather my attempt to live through the hurt best I can, to support those that hurt too, and to remember.

Revenue for this album will go to support animal shelter Associazione Cuore Randagio Rosolini.

credits

released February 27, 2021

All sounds and artworks, manual cuts and folds: Daina Dieva
Shell layout, box architecture: Vytenis Eitminavičius

Thanks to Vytenis, Mauricia Barreira Neves, Cristina.

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Daina Dieva Lithuania

Daina Dieva is
weaving drones and listening to the whisper, screech and chirp of more-than-human world she inhabits.

dainadieva.wordpress.com

discography

Attunement

Jun 2023
Never Empty

Aug 2022
Gedulo vartai

Feb 2021
betylės erdvės

Nov 2020
Budynės

Oct 2020
hibou

Dec 2018
KAS

Jun 2016
Aviliai

Jan 2015
Ice Cold

Mar 2013
Nakčia

Dec 2009

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